Week 4 status report

The weekly status is rough. For the first week since I started this little project, I gained zero subscribers last week, and just as frustratingly, I got very few pageviews. As in, barely a hundred for the week.

Now, in the spirit of full disclosure, I struggled on my end over the last week with just my frame of mind (I had an appointment with my doctor to adjust my meds earlier today, which is why the status report has been delayed), so my content was down. I did two Best Cards pieces (down from my normal three a week), the Monday status report, and a fantasy piece each day. That’s not bad! It’s also far below the pace I had when I started and the pace I wanted to maintain as long as I had nothing else going on in my life.

And that last phrase is key. I have had a few lines on job possibilities, though nothing definite. I’ve applied for some jobs I’d love to have and some I’d totally accept as a holdover. (And if you’re reading this, prospective employers, your job is definitely the one I’d love to have. Nosirree, definitely not a “Well, I’ll take it” job you’re trying to hire for.) But for the most part, the job hunting was before this past week, and that’s because I just struggled emotionally.

Some of the days last week involved me getting the morning piece published and going back to bed, letting my wife watch the boys. Some days involved me surfing the internet mindlessly. Very few of them involved me putting forth anything like the effort needed to either find a new job or make this site grow. I want to say that’s … embarrassing? But it’s not. It’s just reflective of what I was feeling last week, and what I was feeling last week was “shitty.” I hated a lot of stuff, and I hated that I hated it.

But I wrote three different things Sunday, took the boys on a several-mile walk, and have a new med cocktail today. Will that lead to more site growth? I don’t know. But it can’t hurt.